State of mind

I do all these cheerful posts to keep my spirits up, and retain an outlet for conversation (which helps so much, believe me), but sometimes...

If year one was Denial and Bargaining, then year two is definitely shaping up to be Depression and Anger. I preferred the first two and would like to go back to those. Those were good.

Goes without saying, but I don't feel like saying anything else right now: Being a widow is absolutely awful.