Endings almost in sight
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annavereI have used the energy and power of the rewind/fast forward button to mainline some Teen Wolf and make some progress with that WIP. I am down to three scenes in Counterclaims—all of which are from 'De-Void,' because I decided to write all the painful stuff first. I spent last night barreling through 'Insatiable' and am so, so glad to be almost through the bottleneck of having to describe character deaths and attendant responses. That part is all written and needed to be written and is done, and took forever because it legitimately upset me to work on it.
Meanwhile, when I first mapped the final chapter of the far rosier Sidelined, it had twenty necessary scenes overall, and over the course of writing, it has grown to twenty-eight. The story has been doing this since I started, so I'm not very surprised. Twelve of the scenes are still incomplete. The first chapter went up on March 21st last year, and I'm hoping I can at least beat that date, but can I finish it during this shortest month of the year? Will my remote control provide the energy boost needed to finally stagger past the checkered flag? Time will tell...
Serious goal for the year ahead: Shorter chapters. They snuck up on me and all of a sudden I realized I've been posting single chapters longer than the entire four chapters of Trust, and the resultant final edits and html take forever to weed through. And they're a lot to ask of a beta, I think. Shorter chapters! Seriously.
Erase/Rewind just got recontextualized as my ultimate anthem for frustrated fic writing.
Meanwhile, when I first mapped the final chapter of the far rosier Sidelined, it had twenty necessary scenes overall, and over the course of writing, it has grown to twenty-eight. The story has been doing this since I started, so I'm not very surprised. Twelve of the scenes are still incomplete. The first chapter went up on March 21st last year, and I'm hoping I can at least beat that date, but can I finish it during this shortest month of the year? Will my remote control provide the energy boost needed to finally stagger past the checkered flag? Time will tell...
Serious goal for the year ahead: Shorter chapters. They snuck up on me and all of a sudden I realized I've been posting single chapters longer than the entire four chapters of Trust, and the resultant final edits and html take forever to weed through. And they're a lot to ask of a beta, I think. Shorter chapters! Seriously.
Erase/Rewind just got recontextualized as my ultimate anthem for frustrated fic writing.
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Date: 2026-02-12 02:59 am (UTC)And hey, I'm down to ten incomplete scenes!
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Date: 2026-02-12 04:22 am (UTC)Love the song. Thank you for linking it to it. I've now listened to it three times and added it to my playlist of called Current Total Favorites. And it made me go look it my snippets folder for something I once had Methos say and then deleted from that chapter but wanted to keep:
"Oh gods." Methos sank down to the floor and put his face in his hands. "Rewind. Backspace. Delete. I did not say that. I swear I did not say anything."
I wandered over to your work on AO3 with the intention of reading some of the stories you mentioned above. Of course, being me, I got totally sidetracked by a HL story about my precious Methos. If you and I are gonna start conversing on a regular basis and maybe even become friends, you should know that I will get distracted these day with anything Methos. And, hey, I know it could be cause for anxiety to even contemplate being friends with me someone like me--being that I don't really have interests--I have passions. Which I assume is kinda noticeable. One of them being Methos. Another one being Duncan/Methos who truly are my OTP which is, of course, one of the things that glues me and my Killalissa together--only mine in that I'm, thus far anyway, the only person who calls her Killalissa.
Babble, babble, babble. My next task in what I'm writing now is to have Methos explain to Duncan something out of his past that could be and definitely will be a real danger in the present. They do yet know that it will become a real and present danger. Not gonna be easy for Methos to explain and Duncan has yet to tell me how he's going to react except, of course, to protect Methos--hasn't told me yet how it'll make him feel to have more dangers from the past appearing in the present.
And for Methos--gods my poor Methos is really gonna have lots of triggers for old unfinished business with a lot of trauma. I think I'm avoiding that scene in which Methos actually has to explain what the danger is. He's anxious and it's making me anxious.
So I totally understand how upset you must have been writing about character deaths and attendant reactions. Good for you for facing it and dealing with it and writing through it.
And so, I need to work up my courage and go write Methos telling Duncan and writing Duncan's reaction. Omigods--I just realized I might need to have this story have real honest to gods flashback memories just like I had Methos have memories of other experiences in past chapters. It's often part of working through trauma--to relive trauma. Unfortunate, but one of the few things we have that actually resolves the PTSD and allows the survivor of the trauma to truly put it behind them and move on and here I am still babbling when I should be writing. Laters Annavera.
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Date: 2026-02-12 02:26 pm (UTC)I do love Methos, and appreciate all the wonderful stories written about him, but I have this inveterate need to root for and champion the underdogs. A Lasting Impression was (so far) a bit of an outlier for me, because I usually am compelled by secondary characters and relationships (I think it comes from approaching fandom through Jeremiah, and even there, I keep gravitating away from the core characters - although that will change if I can ever get back to work on my insane sequel project, which I will, swear to God), but I had always struggled with the 'Methos' episode and needed to wrestle it. And it worked, because I now love and appreciate the episode.
I don't know if I'll actually be able to get my chapters to cooperate with being shorter, because I like my breaks to be dramatically satisfying. But we'll see!
Thank you, and good luck with your own difficult topics. 💙
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Date: 2026-02-12 06:32 am (UTC)That's excellent that it's made it easier to move forward on a couple of fics, too. Good luck with them, I hope the writing goes well!
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Date: 2026-02-12 01:51 pm (UTC)There is nothing better than writing fanfic for increasing appreciation of a scene and the nuances of the actors in it.