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annavereI'm gonna try to remember and post one of these every month, to nag scold guilt keep myself on track with my projects.
Main focus has been my Erin/Theo story, which got bogged down by me forgetting what it started as. Most of my fic ideas begin from a semi-rational basis of "wouldn't it be interesting if..." and building from there. This one was conceived as self-indulgent wish fulfillment. Soon as I reconnected with that impulse and quit trying to rationalize every little thing, all my various chokepoints solved themselves like magic. It's up over 20,000 words now, and I'm mildly hopeful it sees the light of day this year.
But not too hopeful, because I do expect to sign up for HLH Shortcuts when that comes up - although I am somewhat petrified at the thought, I am certain I'll kick myself if I let me talk me out of participating.
That is the only other short project I am allowing myself to even consider. Once those two are off the table, I'm going to dedicate next year to purely focusing on my two series until some solid results are made.
Creative waffling and worry incoming. Written on the Mirror is designed around two nine-part sections, and since I'm tentatively certain parts one through nine will not need any further drastic ironing, that means half of it could be ready to go. This project is crushing the life out of me with no end in sight, so maybe that would trick my brain into believing there is light at the end of the tunnel, and be psychologically beneficial. Or it might be setting myself up for creative failure.
To be honest, the idea of posting any of it is kind of mortifying and I know investing more time in the second (darker) half is not going to make it any easier. I've been working on this story for a long time and even if I spend half my time hating it, what I've written so far is an accomplishment of some kind, which I never get to revel in because it never gets posted. I'm never free of it. So...
I'm mulling it over, anyway.
Main focus has been my Erin/Theo story, which got bogged down by me forgetting what it started as. Most of my fic ideas begin from a semi-rational basis of "wouldn't it be interesting if..." and building from there. This one was conceived as self-indulgent wish fulfillment. Soon as I reconnected with that impulse and quit trying to rationalize every little thing, all my various chokepoints solved themselves like magic. It's up over 20,000 words now, and I'm mildly hopeful it sees the light of day this year.
But not too hopeful, because I do expect to sign up for HLH Shortcuts when that comes up - although I am somewhat petrified at the thought, I am certain I'll kick myself if I let me talk me out of participating.
That is the only other short project I am allowing myself to even consider. Once those two are off the table, I'm going to dedicate next year to purely focusing on my two series until some solid results are made.
Creative waffling and worry incoming. Written on the Mirror is designed around two nine-part sections, and since I'm tentatively certain parts one through nine will not need any further drastic ironing, that means half of it could be ready to go. This project is crushing the life out of me with no end in sight, so maybe that would trick my brain into believing there is light at the end of the tunnel, and be psychologically beneficial. Or it might be setting myself up for creative failure.
To be honest, the idea of posting any of it is kind of mortifying and I know investing more time in the second (darker) half is not going to make it any easier. I've been working on this story for a long time and even if I spend half my time hating it, what I've written so far is an accomplishment of some kind, which I never get to revel in because it never gets posted. I'm never free of it. So...
I'm mulling it over, anyway.
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Date: 2024-10-01 11:24 pm (UTC)It's a difficult question. Will it make you feel lighter and like there's an end in sight? That could be what you need. The question is whether it will only make you feel "done" and then you'll lose the motivation to finish part 2. (I know which way it tends to work for me.)
ETA: Would it help to have an alpha reader for part 1?
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Date: 2024-10-02 02:04 am (UTC)Honestly, an alpha reader might be extremely helpful, because I think what it comes down to is I've lost perspective and need a second opinion.